Tuesday, 13 July 2010

Back to zero.

I gotta be honest here. I'm gonna reset my binge counter. From 13 to 0, now I just need to beat that.
While I don't feel like I have *binged* as such, I haven't been very *normal* with my eating. The last 2-3 days, I have deliberately eaten too much. There wasn't that extreme loss of control or self loathing associated with a full blown binge, but it was just like "Well, I may as well eat more". That got me between 2000 and 3000 calories. I've also exercised lots in the last 3 days, but the things I ate just aren't things where I can say "ok, it was healthy, I won't count it as a binge" or something like that.
So back to zero it is. My weight is at 67kgs now, which is a bit more than last Friday, because obviously I haven't *made up* for my weekend yet (more like the reverse).

This is what always happens, I get motivated and make goals, and then forget about them or make myself believe they are unnessecary. I won't let it happen this time. I'll keep blogging.
It all starts with the first day, right??

Love, M.

1 comment:

  1. Hey hun,

    Just wanted to assure you that yes there are people out here hearing you. I feel your pain chickie. And yes it always starts with the first day. You've managed nearly 2 weeks. You can do it again, and more. Have faith!